My Alterhumanity
Alterhumanity and kin culture is, and has been, a large part of both my life and identity. I have identified as a therian for a while now, and have since added on several otherkin microlabels.
I identify as non-human physically and psychologically- though the strengths can depend on the day and the kintype. Not all of them are physical but they all are psychological. My physical alterhumanity ebbs and flows, some days I feel more human, and others less so. It's quite similar to my trans identity. Gender dysphoria is worse for me some days. My species dysphoria is like that as well. But, in general, I feel non-human more days than not.
I am aware that I am biologically, human. My blood is as human as yours is, and the next guy, and the next. But I myself am not physically human. I am a bird, I have feathers lining my skin, my claws are there, and I have a beak. Even if the DNA coded into my skin and bone say I'm human, I am not. I apologize if this doesn't make sense; it's not meant to for anyone other than myself.
My experiences may be seen as transspecies, but I don't use the label on myself personally.
I, admittedly, have quite a few kintypes. I blame my absolutely awful sense of self. It's hard to see myself as just one thing. All of my kintypes are me, all at once, forever. My body does feel too small for myself, though. I'm not entirely sure if this is because of my multiple kintypes or because of the larger nature of some of my types.
I have been questioning myself as plural for ahwile because of this, but I'm not trying to self diagnose myself. I also understand that theriotypes aren't seperate beings from myself, and I'm not claiming they are. Again, it's difficult to explain. Sorry.
FYI, I am not good at explaining things. Some of my written experiences may be seen as "fake" because some types I just see as myself, and I identify fully as them. Some of them sometimes fade- or I might be wrong about them. It happens. A disappearance of a type does not flag me as a "faker". Change is normal and okay. Being wrong about a type, is okay!
Remember, fakeclaiming hurts not just the fakeclaimee, but the community as a whole.
Birds
The first shift that I truly remember is a dream shift. I was a red tailed hawk, flying through large city, sort of like liminal space. I didn't know what a therian was at the time but I rarely dream, so it stuck out to me a lot. I don't know the exact timeline but I later started identifying as a red tailed hawk therian (as well as a cat and a deer, but I was young, and was a bit too confident about it. they've faded by now).
Even before this shift, I had frequently watched birds and feel jealous. I was supposed to feel up there in the sky with them. This is likely a thing that a lot of people feel, but when paired with my therianthropy, it feels significant. Another significant shift was a very strong beak shift while I was watching Stranger Things. It was scarily real. I don't get shifts like that often.
I had identified as solely a red tailed hawk for a couple years, but started identifying as a bird cladotherian when my bird identity started to feel more general. Occasionally I still ID as a hawk specifically due to its continued strength and presence as myself.
Sometimes I get bird shifts were I walk around and move my head like how you'd imagine a bird moving its head. I don't do bird quads because they hurt my ankles but I do like wearing flannels without buttoning them up and letting them flow in the wind, as it reminds me of a bird's tail.
Border Collie
My border collie type has also been here awhile, but not as long as my bird one. It was a sort of... denial, I'm not sure. But I viewed myself as a dog and called myself a dog kemonimimi, but eventually I realized it was a theriotype. It was a quick kinfirm for me because of that.
I've had dog like shifts for awhile, but I never really saw them as that because it took me awhile to actually consider it a theriotype. I vividly remember being allowed outside during school and I would pace in place and beg my friends to go play with me and run with me. I still have those shifts but they were stronger during that period because 1. I was younger and less tired all the time, 2. friends make me a bit more hyper, and 3. I haven't been on a field that big in years.
I also have the tendency to shake my left foot, and it was always registered in my mind as "tail wagging". It was quite obvious (to me at least) that I was a dog therian.
I don't know why it's the border collie I identify as, but of all dog breeds, it's the most "me". I also sometimes get herding instincts. Typically I represent myself as a black and white collie other than other colors, but I'm not completely sure if that is correct. I can only assume it is until I get something that says otherwise.
I had picked out my name Cody before I identified as colliekin, and I remember being very species euphoric when I realized that Cody is a relatively popular name for border collies.
My main fursona is based off of my colliekin.
Stoat
Hairy Lip Fern
JAS 39 Gripen
Fan (II)
Silver the Hedgehog
Stan Marsh
Rocket (Phighting!)
This page is still a work in progress.
I am currently questioning: Crested Gecko